Suffering stupidly.

As Jordan Peterson always says "You can either suffer stupidly or suffer for the right thing," or something along these lines.

Well, that's a harsh way to look at the world. Maybe too harsh... okay, surely too harsh.

For someone who has never experienced "suffering stupidly," to accept that life is, indeed, suffering, no matter what choice you make, or what circumstances you live in, is too harsh.

Because, how stupid does your suffering have to be, for you to become aware of its stupidity? Notice, it says stupid, or better understood as - useless suffering, unnecessary suffering.

Suffering, because something bad happens to you, is not stupid. To suffer, because a loved one dies, is hardly your fault, hence it can't be stupid. It would be even considered inhumane. It is unavoidable.

So... how good does your life have to be, so that you can allow yourself ...WAIT

Life is never that good, right? Always something happens.

Well, actually, people go on vacations, right? And it also happens, that people go on vacations, and no one of their loved ones dies unexpectedly, on that particular week. But still, they will tell you that they were depressed, throughout the whole trip.

I'm trying to make a point that you have to climb out of hell first before you have the chance to suffer stupidly.

We all need a time in life, where we get to sit down and just fuck off. Do nothing, or, even better, do all the things we think about doing, while on the job or studying at the desk. Maybe not all, at least a few, to catch a pattern, ya know?

Just so that we can realize, that even IF things go according to your demeanor, you would suffer nonetheless. That's because your demeanor sucks. It's YOU, not the environment, not poverty, sickness, or death.

Your demeanor is to try and actively cover up the things that scare you. Are you lonely? Do you lack physical closeness? Watch some porn. Have meaningless sex. Pleasure sex. TONS OF IT. Woooooooooooaaaaaah! Yeah--oh-shit-this-is-not-as-good-as-I-hoped-for-it-tobe......Depression.

Sort of like, you have to touch the flame to learn that it is hot. It is not enough to be told so.

My dad always said that was stupid. One should be able to learn from the mistakes of others.

Hence, we should all listen to Jordy and learn, without suffering stupidly.

That would mean, you're supposed to blindly trust people. No.  You can use your rationale to tell whether things make sense.

How would you rationalize that all the things that are pleasurable and nice ought to bring you doom if you make them your primary focus in life?

The idea of a life where you can live out all your pleasures, is too nice, first of all. Secondly, the idea of having to WILLFULLY avoid them (at least most of the time), and suffer nonetheless, sounds horrible, okay?

They say that, once you get rolling it gets easier... momentum and stuff. Well, I've been rolling for a while, blunts & joints... (Nah, just kidding... or am I? You'll never know =)) But things still feel like I'm balancing on eggshells. Hell, I guess that's what it's going to be until the end. Just a damn ropewalk man.

My man Nietzsche, I see you, and I ain't going to push myself off that rope. Who knows, knows.  

Written by Hans (first half I was high, second sober, now ya know).

And if you were hoping for a solution to this problem, me too bro.

See ya.