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26
Journal entry 26.01.22

Journal entry 26.01.22

I have not gone to jiu-jitsu this morning, despite my feeling up for it (which is rare in the mornings!
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Oct
23
Antidepressants & Resistance On The Path To Healing

Antidepressants & Resistance On The Path To Healing

After an extended conversation with one of my students, where we touched upon the high anti-depressant prescription rates in my
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Oct
08
Recognition And Awareness On The Path To Healing, Part 2

Recognition And Awareness On The Path To Healing, Part 2

I often feel lost in time. My urges take over as if I had no self-restraint. Pictures and videos are
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Sep
27
Recognition And Awareness On The Path To Healing

Recognition And Awareness On The Path To Healing

When I said before that the only path you can take is straightforward, I did not mention that the straight
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Aug
10
Stress fractures?

Stress fractures?

How much more of a hopeless case do you have to be, to repeatedly injure yourself in the same way?
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Aug
02
The Way of The Sword

The Way of The Sword

Where I Fell, Again. "Just one more project and I will finally make it", I thought. I closed
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Jul
26
Snakes and Staffs

Snakes and Staffs

I heard Jordan Peterson talk about Moses and his venture to the promised land at his beyond order event in
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Jul
13
Fucking waffle

Fucking waffle

I have a couch-lock after hitting the bong a 5th time in 2 hours. I feel disoriented and confused. I
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Jun
18
What it Felt Like to be an  Addict.

What it Felt Like to be an Addict.

The Mindset of an addict Rarely the decision to get high is mediated by thoughts such as "I will
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Jun
05
My therapist told me to sit still..

My therapist told me to sit still..

I found myself in a rather uncomfortable spot right after my move to Finland. I plundered my savings and put
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